February 7, 2016
We
are now well into the Galilean ministry of Jesus, the one he began in the
Nazareth synagogue.
This
Sunday contains a surprise development.
The
Fifth Sunday finds three of the greatest witnesses in the Bible—Isaiah, Paul
and Peter—expressing their own worthlessness.
What
is your attitude toward worthiness?
Do
you agree with today’s psychologized sentiment that, “I am worthy,”
or “I’m ok, you’re ok,” or “I buy this product
because I’m worth it”?
Let’s
look at these three witnesses and see about their worthiness. What is the
Lord’s reaction to them?
Isaiah
first.
In
it the Lord is seated on a high and lofty throne.
A
Seraphim angel choir is crying out, “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of hosts! All
the earth is filled with his glory!”*
Isaiah
reacts to the paradox.
Woe
is me, I am doomed! For I am a man of unclean lips, living among a people of
unclean lips; yet my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts!
Then
an angel swoops down, carrying a burning coal! To cleanse Isaiah’s lips!!!! He
is doomed alright, but his “doom” is to be made clean through suffering. To be
made able to speak of God.
Second,
St. Paul says that Christ appeared to him last of all, as to one born
abnormally (Second Reading).
“For
I am the least of the apostles, not fit to be called an apostle, because I
persecuted the church of God.”
Unworthy,
but did the grace of God discard him?
No,
it appointed him an Apostle even though he had never even met Jesus.
Jesus
tells Peter, James and John to fish in the deep water (where they had been
fishing and fishing all night with no result).
Without
warning their nets are bloated with fish. Peter cries out, “Depart from me,
Lord, for I am a sinful man.”
So
we have a problem here. I
sn’t
the experience of God supposed to lead to peace, forgiveness, and joy instead
of shame?
Make
a distinction.
The
real reaction of all three figures is not really shame, which means concluding
that they are each ugly and sinful, but instead it is a kind of humility, a
finding their of their true place in reality.
Look
at it.
Each
of these men is forced to compare himself directly with the presence of God.
When
people meet the holiness of God head-on, they are able to see humanness in
themselves—as full of holes as a sponge.
They
could never pretend that they shone like the stars because they saw the real
star bursting with light.
Experience
of God lets us understand that we are far, far less than God. This is not bad.
Our
own elegance cannot make us holy but God’s can.
At
Mass we echo the Roman centurion: “Lord I am not worthy that you should enter
under my roof, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed.”
The answer is, therefore, we can be proud to be unworthy if
reception of God’s love is the result.
Whenever we react with shame, God does not say in return, “I
reject you,” but “I love you dearly.
Come be with me, you fine human being.”